It seems like tomorrow’s finalizing of the divorce should not be a very big deal—that it should just be a matter of going through the motions.

This is not the case, apparently.

I am doing my darndest to push whatever thoughts or feelings are there down, down, down into no-man’s-land, but I’m just ending up kind of numb (and overly full from all the eating).

What a season to officially end my marriage, no?

I’m sure eventually I’ll post something of substance (Famous Fridays don’t seem to count, in my mind) that is not angst-ridden, but for now I am just getting through it.

Tuesday, 8:30 eastern, 7:30 central, I have a phone-date with the judge who will make it all official.


9 responses to “tomorrow

  1. wow. Big day. Good luck with the next 24 hours. Hugs and positive thoughts !

  2. I remember the days leading up to my divorce date. I felt so many emotions all at once — sad, anxious, grief…and yet I also felt relief and the feeling of a brand new start.

    The night before, I promised myself that I would treat myself to something special after the court appearance. Somehow focusing on that when things seemed difficult helped me to make it through.

    My “treat” wasn’t anything huge…just going to my favorite metaphysical bookstore to buy myself a beautiful velvet bag for my tarot cards…but it helped me to focus BEYOND the tough stuff and see that there was light on the other side.

    I’m thinking of you as you move forward — through this and beyond!

  3. Just thinking of you and sending lots of bloggy love your way.



  4. Oh, hon. Gone and good riddance, I say! You deserve something special. Can you do like, say, $45 for a massage? Or maybe some mild retail therapy? Try to focus on you, k? Good luck.

  5. Thinking of you and sending you lots of comfort and love!

  6. Thinking of you, and I agree that you should try to do something special for yourself, something that is just for you that you couldn’t, or wouldn’t, do before.

  7. {{{Hugs}}} and thinking of you my friend!

  8. Thinking of you tomorrow and your big phone call.

  9. This is not an end. This is a release.

    Much love to you sweetie.

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