Just wanted to put that out there so you didn’t have to wonder any more (because I know you’re all on the edge of your seats).
The really bad news is that my co-worker didn’t get it either. So back to the “wondering how it’s all going to work out” stage.
The weird thing is that I had a pretty strong feeling that I was going to get it, and my intuition is usually pretty accurate on these things. I didn’t want to post my weird (apparently inaccurate) intuition, but I guess it doesn’t matter now. (Interestingly, my co-worker had a feeling that she WASN’T going to get it. Maybe next time I’ll ask her what she’s feeling about my chances.)
I’m feeling a lot of things mixed together: some relief that I don’t have to turn my life upside down (at least the job part of it) right now, disappointment, rejection, anxiety about my general job security, and a curious calm. All at once.
Now I can go back to focusing on my real job and being somewhat less distracted. Maybe.